Saturday, September 13, 2008

一生中最重要的人


事情發生在美國的一所大學。
在快下課時教授對同學們說:"我和大家做個遊戲,誰願意配合我一下。"
一女生走上台來。
教授說:"請在黑板上寫下你難以割捨的二十個人的名字。"
女生照做了。
有她的鄰居、朋友以、親人等等。
教授說:"請你劃掉一個這裏面你認為最不重要的人。"
女生劃掉了一個她鄰居的名字。
教授又說:"請你再劃掉一個。"
女生又劃掉了一個她的同事。
教授再說:"請你再劃掉一個。"
女生又劃掉了一個。

..... 最後,黑板上只剩下了三個人,她的父母、丈夫和孩子。
教室非常安靜,同學們靜靜的看著教授,感覺這似乎已不再是一個遊戲了。
教授平靜的說 :"請再劃掉一個。"
女生遲疑著,艱難的做著選擇..... 她舉起粉筆,劃掉了父母的名字。
"請再劃掉一個。"
身邊又傳來了教授的聲音。
她驚呆了,顫巍巍地舉起粉筆緩慢而堅決的又劃掉了兒子的名字。
緊接著,她哇的一聲哭了,樣子非常痛苦。

教授等她平靜了一下,問道:"和你最親的人應該是你的父母和你的孩子,因為父母是養育的人,孩子是你親生的,而丈夫是可以重新再尋找的,為什麼丈夫反倒是你最難割捨的人呢? "
同學們靜靜地看著她,等待著她的回答。
女生平靜而又緩慢地說道:"隨著時間的推移,父母會先我而去,孩子長大成人後肯定也會離我而去,真正陪伴我度過一生的只有 我的丈夫。"

Friday, September 12, 2008

day 10 ~ happiness


10 days after i press the button..
let me tell you something..
something wonderful and joyful..
i think you will be happy for me..
today..
he tell me something..
he tell me he will wait for me...
and he want to be with me...
forever~
(≥▽≤)
laugh laugh laugh!!!

hahahahahahaha!!
are you thinking wat am i thinking?
i hope you are!!
cause...
=P
you know wat i mean..
i miss you badly today too...
dont worry...
you are still in my heart like usual..
no one can replace you...
but i love him!!

day 9 ~ yesterday


9 days after i press the button..
i still miss you like more and more each day..
yesterday house line is down...
today i in cyber post this blog...
i miss you badly..
more and more...
yesterday is also another suffering day for me..
but i overcome it..
i'm doing better each day...
as long as i know you are there for me...
no matter where you are..
deep down in my heart..
you are always beside me...
a yellow roses means...
beauty and love...
there you go~
i miss and love you...

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

day 8 ~ control


8 days after i press the button...
missing you is like a daily, hourly, minutely, secondly thing...
you stay in my heart so deep tat cant be erase...
so..
i'm slowly getting use to live without you...
is tat good or bad?
part of me is glad..
part of me will wan you to be here beside me..
what should i do?
i been control by him again..
what should i do?
you always be my advisor...
now i am left alone to deal with him...
he is cunning..
he is evil...
he is not who i know anymore...
pls tell me wat can i do..
or what should i do?
maybe this is why part of me still needed you..
this is part of me tat havent grow up to face...
is time for me to learn...
how to be as strong as you..
so i am not being control..

my room flood!! HELP!

lol.. tat's why i shouldn't take alcohol.. not a single drip (≥▽≤) hahaha!! ok.. this is wat happen.. i went to toilet.. and wash my leg before i want to sleep.. then.. i forgot to off my water pipe...

then... my maid went to switch on the water pump switch.. then.. the water rush into the room.. guess how i realize it?? ≥.≤ LOL.. i want to go to the washroom to take my pyjamas... then i step on the floor... OMG!! why got water??!! LMAO.. i scream!! "MY ROOM FLOOD!! HELP!!" lol.. then my maid ran up.. and got piss at me =.=

so in my blur and half concious condition.. i took my towel, clothes etc.. to dry my room up...

all my notes for Modern Theatre wait.. no.. is Cinema Modernity and Montage class.. yeah~ ruin... hopefully it dries off soon... sorry Azmyl..


so.. one advice for me... don take alcohol... or i might drown in my own room i might not know wat happen =.=

chocolate noob? O.o

ok.. Charlene gave me a chocolate-"Jack Daniel's" that contains alcohol today... and for ppl who dont know me well~ i mean on alcohol level... =.= actually.. i cant touch alcohol at all.. not a single drop..

if i take or drink alcohol.. i will somehow.. kinda get dizzy and then.. drunk? LOL =.= and high~ SO.. anyway... i keep this chocolate until i go home... so.. tat means.. i eat this chocolate at home...

so here we go~
open in front of my computer.. eat while playing GB....

one bite.. see those alcohol.. hehe....

TA DA~ gone... i ate it!!


then.. i am not writing this post.. i am kinda concious... but.. *cough*... you read my post above.. you might not think that i am... =.= or call up my piggy... he might tell you how *high* or somehow... you ask him ●•. •●

iron iron~ ●•. •●

lol.. tomorrow.. we have shooting for the minister.. so everyone of us will have to set up for the minister shoot today.. cause.. the video team is meeting The Star for interview tomorrow morning and photo shots on then video team on how they gonna shoot the scene is going on at 9+ morning tomorrow.. means.. i going to go to college at 8am o.O sienz...

anyway... which means.. we are going to iron the green screne again~~!!!

so.. faiq and i.. each take half of the screen and start ironing... lol.. tired but fun~~

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

day 7 ~ suffer..


7 days after i press the button..
i suppose to feel better each day..
since my piggy is trying to hard to cheer me up...
but why i am not..
why am i still wet my pillow everynite?
except for missing you...
there is more heartache~ing things you will not wan to know...
today i feel so suffering...
i been backstabbed all the time by him..
how could he do tat to me?
6 years...
finally he take down his mask...
i see his true colour...
now i finally realize...
he is just acting...
he can be a better actor than me...
then anybody else in this world...
now his show is over..
his drama comes to an end...
cause i know him too well..
so please...
leave me alone now...
before one of us dissapear...
i dont want to see him again...
NEVER!!!

piglet's new『bag』~

piglet buy a new 『bag』today~ hehe.. actually is a picnic basket!! today while we are waiting for the nametag in amcorp mall.. Grace and i were walking around and see is there anything interesting tat we can buy for ourselves or the project.. so i spotted this basket.. and i decided to turn it into my personal picnic basket which put all my food in it...

so which means.. i gonna prepare lots of food to college each day~ hahahaha.. i will enjoy it!!



hehehee.. see those food?? Yummy dont they?? hehe.. if you wan a bite.. much come to college and join me for breakfast, lunch and tea... (≥▽≤) i will make sure you wont be hungry through out the day ^^

today's journey~

field work for atomic jaya today!! weeee~ ★ Grace and i went to a few nurseries to look for National Flower.. the red hibiscus.... so we went everywhere... kota kemuning nursery till sunway...


and we even sees butterfly there~ isn't it beautiful? nursery is a nice place to be.. dont you think so??

then, after a long search... we went to amcorp mall to make nametag for the characters in atomic jaya... hope it looks like government servant.. (≥▽≤)

anyway.. although we have a long field work today... but i enjoy myself.. cause... most of the time.. i had my piggy accompany sms~ing on the phone ^^ so happy.. love you dar! ♥

Monday, September 8, 2008

day 6 ~ visit ♥


6 days after i press the button...
do you miss me?
i do miss you alot..
very much..
today i went to visit you...
i brought my bro along with me...
i wish you will be happy to see him..
he misses you..
like how much i miss you...
today,
he keep disturb me again..
he refuse to let me go...
he insist wan to talk to me..
don't worry..
i know wat am i doing..
and i will be fine..
just tat i enjoy my visit today..
cause i miss you badly...
we miss you badly..

another fun job~ ♥

hehe~ another fun job of the day!! help Faiq to set up the bunga mangga for his video shooting.. so there is~ help him out!!!


is not easy to help him you know.. LOL (≥▽≤) jking jking~ haha... but then.. "i curi tidur"... haha...

same sleeping spot... (≥▽≤) haha~ in my sleep... i dream of you piggy... haha!! muaks.. love & miss you anytime, any moment... =*

today's shooting~

today's rehearsal.. become a video shooting day for the math stop motion (means write in stroke by stroke and shoot it second by second).. so imagine... i need to compress my maths calculation.. on to a tiny space on the blackboard~



here we go... see those 4 marks on the board?? yeah~ write all the calculation above on to tat small tiny space.. stroke by stroke...


this is how i write.. slowly.. one by one... hehe.. i hope you understand it.. hehehe...

each time i wrote one stroke.. i need to walk to the camera.. so tat they able to record each stroke without shooting me in it...

yeah!! yes!! last stroke!! the final volume of the atomic bomb tat we are building is approximately 45945.793cm cube~

so this is the final product... the whole piece of calculation within the four corner... stroke by stroke... and you know wat??... i am shack!!

tired tired tired!!! help!! piggy i need you soo badly.. to help me!!! awwww.. muaks i love you dar!! hope you are here to help me massage my leg =P

Sunday, September 7, 2008

do i deserve...


you know all about me now..
i dont know how to face you...
i feel so shame..
so lifeless and depress...
i worry..
how you look at me...
how you going to treat me...
how you think about me...
all this had been spinning in my mind for the whole nite..
till now..
i still cant forget the fact tat..
you know it...
you saw me fighting with him again today..
you know me one step more...
more shame..
each day you know me better...
but in a shameful way...
why?
why?
why?!!
now i wonder...
am i still deserve to be by your side...

day 5 ~ without you


5 days after i press the button...
lots of things happen after you gone..
lots of things bother me after you left..
what should i do?
how should i live?
i need you to teach me how..
you are my life advisor~
today,
i realize..
in this world..
i dont need certain ppl...
they are just extra in your life..
they dont bring you joy...
they only bring you...
sorrow..
tears..
pain...
suffer...
and scars..
all these ppl not even worth to be remember...
these ppl...
let them stay 1 second longer in your life...
to you is...
suicide..
lifeless..
and meaningless..
so..
i realise..
is better i live my life now...
without you...

my room...

this is what happen when you are too busy to care wat's going on with your life... == i was too busy with atomic jaya, my life and everything... including my room ==

this tat on the floor is like thousand years of collection... my com, my camera, my mic.. dictionary, bag.. etc etc...


then.. after i wake up... tat's it... just like tat.. later my maid will come make my bed for me =.= but then.. the floor.. she will just leave it there.. cause.. she will scare i scold her if i cant find my things... sry ==

anyway.. soon i going to tidy it up.. so soon my room will back to normal.. erm.. but tat time will be.. erm.. next week? (≥▽≤)

i wan my life back...


who care about me now?
all you wan from me is only things tat benefit you...
do you ever care how i feel?
how i think and how i live?
today i finally realise..
i am being watch..
being watch by you..
control by you..
like a puppet..
like a doll...
like your toy...
even like your pet...
now i reallize..
every single part of my life is a road tat been lay down by you...
i want my life back!!
i want myself back!!
i wan everything back!!
i can live my life...
my way..
my style..
my own...
even though i am all alone...
SO, give me back my life!!